The thing is, I taught myself at a very young age to control how and when I show my true emotions.
I didn’t like expressing how I truly felt because whenever I did, something would drastically change afterwards. Confessing my emotions to school counselors and teachers (whether I felt good, bad, happy, or sad) usually ended in a new foster home, moving back and forth between my parents’ houses, changing schools, and a loss of friends.
My only problem is that I’m not always able to shut that part of myself off when it’s really needed. I want to be able to fully open up to the people who deserve it, especially the ones that I truly love. But even when I desperately want to, I just can’t.
I could be in the worst emotional or physical pain of my life, and more than likely, you wouldn’t even have the slightest clue.@2 hours ago with 5 notes
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